nomad of the universe
- Former Feminist
- Reverse Aging aka Female “Benjamin Button”
Researcher of but not limited to:
- Human Potential
- Universal Truth
- Xponential Intelligence
- The Human Condition
- Ancient Wisdom
- The Tyrannical Feminine
- Control Culture
Human Potential Champion
- Status Quo Provocateur
What I love about myself is that I somehow found the courage to stick around long enough to discover that everything I was raised to believe about myself, the evil I was, the people who raised me, blood family, the world, the “others”, my destiny, “god”, my duty, my “assignment”, the afterlife, etc. etc. was a big fat LIE. Words cannot express the effects of the religious family cult I was born into. Scientology comes close.
I left that world at 18, but proceeded to limp through life, experiencing self-sabotage, self-hate, victim mentality, feeling let down by god, and everyone else. I was unable to develop real connections to others and so faked a persona based on the extroverts that appeared to be enjoying life. I look back and see how numb I felt while watching 9-11 from the relative safety of Canada. This numbed out experience of life was my norm.
15 years ago I turned 40 and my soul told me that I was full of black poison. I had no idea what that meant but found my health falling apart soon after. The funny thing was that fitness was the ONE thing that I could enjoy up until then. Even that small joy dropped away. Every level of pain increased until I developed pneumonia with pleurisy. I was done with the act.
For some reason I still do not understand, I was cajoled into giving myself another shot at this life. I became a truth seeker even while under the influence of a control culture that I was unaware of. I continued to trust liars, I continued to walk blindly into situations where I was taken advantage of, I continued to believe that people were mostly good. Still, I persisted.
This blog contains a few of the musings and awarenesses I have extracted out of my Self as I explore the neverending journey to deeper and wider truths about life, this realm and humanity.